You cannot know how embarrassing this is for me. There’s a part of me that’s angry with the universe that I have to get this naked. I understand, though, that all artists feel this way when they find their voice.
It’s always, always personal.
It’s always, always scary.
It always, always changes your life to let yourself be seen as you are.
It’s been quite to shock to discover who I am when I’m not hiding behind the mask of who I think I have to be to pay the rent and be accepted.
I made my first tantric meditation for a man (an emotional adolescent, really) whom I hoped would be a lover. He didn’t bite. He said it felt invasive.
Ok then… that set me back. This was 2018. I didn’t try again for a year or more, but this idea won’t leave me. I made several versions later that didn’t quite send the energy the way I wanted them to. I had to become almost another person entirely to have enough courage to do it full out.
The people I’m interested in knowing are super happy to know the boundary/container explicitly. So then, let’s pull the Band-aid all the way off – these meditations are sensual and likely also sexually activating. I make them available to you on the condition that you and your partner, if you have one, are cool with this.
This meditation is 1 hr 10 mins, and all bodies are welcome. It is focused around cocks, but with adaptations for pussies sprinkled in. It’s ideal right before bed or a nap as it will send you right off to dreamland.
I sincerely hope this will be the first of many.
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